Hi My Name is BDH and I am a Diabetic

AND I SUCK AT IT.

I love food.  I am over weight, I don't get enough exercise and I eat too much.  Being diabetic means that I have to try to watch what I eat, take medication twice a day, test my blood regularly and give myself insulin once a day.  I hate it.  I hate it all.  I hate trying to remember to take my medication.  I hate the inevitable disappointment when I fall off the wagon and my blood sugar gets high.  I hate the lectures from doctors and specialists who to be fair are doing their job and trying to keep me healthy.  I hate the guilt I feel before the appointments and I hate that I have to give up some of the things that I love, or should.

Problem is, I love my wife and my daughter and my family and want to be around to love, laugh, cry and live with them for a long long time.

I don't know what the answer is. I really don't.  I wish I was one of those people that could just choose to do something and have the will power to just do it but I'm not.

I guess there is no easy answer.  Anything worth attaining requires work and more than a little sacrifice.

"Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Maybe I just need to get enthusiastic about getting fit, losing weight and getting my blood sugar under control.  I am not sure exactly how one goes about that.